TRAITOR

Traitor

Last November, while performing my deci-annual calendar year 2000 Spring Cleaning I finally found the manuscript my son and I had been working on and had finally transcribed. Amazing grace, that saved a wretch, like me. Hallelujiah.

In the on-going followup and delayed followup house cleaning, over the course of the next five months I uncovered various versions of the basic text -- the children's version (which is actually a how-to-write-a-book manual for parents and their children) and the X-rated version, wherein I launch preemptive attacks upon societal ills.

The children's version is called Snapshots From the Family Album, quite Floydian, don't you agree?

The X-rated virgin (harsh, graphic language) which I had forgotten about composing (things go like that for those of us fortunate enough to have experienced manic moments enduring continuosly for months -- the mother of all mixed blessings) I had entitled Love it is a Razor, with the explanation:

An alcoholic,
manic depressive
paranoid-schizophrenic
with a litany of personality disorders
lays his soul bare-naked on the table
in prayer, praying that
his son won't have to bleed
from the cuts of the same blades.

DEDICATION

This book is dedicated to the millions of perople seeking professional help and healing from the psychotherapueutic community.

WARNING: Most of you will not be helped by that community because many of the psychiatric practitioners are frauds, quacks and worse -- despots, soul killers, perverts, voyeurs, and judgmental pill pushers who are satisfied to mask symptoms of existential crises with "medication" (poisonous toxic man-made substances).

If you find yourself asking "I wonder if my psychiatrist is one among the many?" then the answer is an unqualified Yes, he is!
In the frontier of the new millenium, the twenty-first century, the psychiatric / psychological paradigm works as follows: You are healed when YOU decide that you are healed. Your therapist will almost never tell you that you have become well, nor that it has done its all for you, and that you must be kicked loose (from the couch) as long as you choose to continue seeing your therapist.
The reasons are simple: as long as you continue in therapy, you must be, a priori, unwell, otherwise why would you pay money for something you don't need? The other reason is their vested financial interest in your continuing therapy. This model assumes that the mentally troubled are smart shoppers, rational consumers.
HEAL THYSELF!
Your therapist will acknowledge that you have been cured when you finally reach the realization that you can put ALL the sources of your trouble, your dis-eases, upon the broken backs of your parents: that you are genetically defective.

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Recently, I have toyed with changing the title to TRAITOR, with these notes.

I am a traitor
A traitor to my race
A traitor to my creed
A traitor to my gender
A traitor to my former corporate standing
A traitor to my former socio-economic status
A traitor to my cultural inculcations.

In my treachery to these, the circumstances
of the random and improbable mating of sperm and egg,
of the accident of my birth, I am empowered,
and have become the most dangerous of all creatures.
walking cloaked like those, and speaking to language of
those who cleave unto their unfounded beliefs:

I am the creature which haunts their nightmares,
I am the born again human who has looked into the mirror
Seen his true self and been lain low by the painful realization
that my life's choices had corrupted me, and made me and turned me
upon my genuine self -- I had let creature comforts numb me
from what the universe first called me to be and called me to do.
I have rejected all that for which they stand; all that they worship.

Their unfounded beliefs and idols of worship revolve around these matters:

In the superiority of the white race over all other races,
In the superiority of christianity over all other faith traditions,
In the superiority of men over women,
In the wisdom of the corporate elites over the working class masses.In the superiority of their western "culture and civilization" to
all other cultures and civilizations.

They self-justify these beliefs by their material "blessings" that have accrued unto them resulting from the circumstances of the random and improbable mating of sperm and egg, of the accident of their births, and, at the upper echelons, by their celebrity.

The gospel of prosperity and the cult of personality are sufficient self-justifications.

This gospel and this cult I reject out of hand, and will oppose to my last breath.
Mark Ganzer
6 April, 2007